Tomorrow my brother and sister and I are going to spread and distribute my mom’s ashes.  I still don’t know that it has sunk in that my mom is in a box right now. All of her. And we have to divvy her up. ugh.

Tuesday would have been her birthday.

We’re leaving for vacation and happier days Thursday. I don’t know if I’m taking the computer yet. I just can’t make a decision.

I’ve got some posts drafted and scheduled. I’m probably going to be depressed, so it might be best for me to leave the computer behind and unplug. But I might need to write, so I might take it. I don’t know.

It’d be better if I didn’t have to deal with my mom’s death right now. I’ve been keeping myself way too busy so I could avoid it. Looks like I don’t get to avoid it any longer. Then comes Thanksgiving and Christmas and I honestly don’t know that I’ll be worth anything the next few months.