Life has been…difficult. Not the worst it’s ever been, but yet, still demanding in its own right. It wouldn’t do any good to list it all out. When I do that, it seems to get worse and I don’t know if I have the wherewithal to endure more mental anguish right now. I’m trying to sort through all of my baggage and at the same time I’m trying to focus on this Advent season, this expectant and joyous time of waiting.
Honestly, I’m anything but joyous.
I feel defeated, discouraged, depressed (are all “d” words like this?) I’m feeling rather hopeless. Full of unbelief and fear. Beaten down and kicked again. And just when I think I’ve handed it all over, another bomb is dropped on me. And I keep handing it over.
I’m not joyous.
That fullness of heart feels out of reach right now.
Praying for you my dear friend. Please contact me if you need a shoulder. Love you!
Breathe. Again. Surrender and believe! Say these words AND believe it deeply. I know you are watching Lord. Give me grace to make you proud!
🙁 I love you!
Oh, friend! I wish was there to hug you, cry and pray with you.
Asking Him to fill you with peace that passes all understanding and light the darkness for you this day.
Love ya
Jen
I hate this for you. Will be praying and sending you hugs through the internet…. Love ya lady…