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Boundaries
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(trigger warning. childhood abuse, sexual violation.)   People without boundaries get angry when you start setting them.   When I was a child, my boundaries were crossed all too often and because I was dependent on the boundary-crossers for survival, I had no choice but to allow it. As an adult, I didn’t know I had a choice–until recently. The last decade has been...

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{Listen}
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{Listen}

Dec 19, 2014 by

Simplify. {2008} Simplify. {2009} Simplify. {2010} Believe. {2011} Grace. {2012} Restore {2013} Listen (Silent) {2014} I am definitely not the same girl. I am less of her and more of her. I listened. I did. More than ever. I was silent when I wanted to speak and I sat in silence and listened to messages meant for my soul. I fought inwardly and outwardly–wanting...

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Build Your Immunity
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Your immune system is your best defense. You can exert positive energy and avoid the fear-porn being pumped into your system. I’m not a doctor, but I am my best health advocate and it’d be in your best interest to take control of your choices and your body to minimize risk of getting sick. 1. Make your food at home from real food ingredients....

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Drumming and Healing
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It started when a friend told me about EFT (emotional freedom technique or tapping.) The skeptic inside me said it was BS, but the other side of me said if it works, let’s try it. I read about it and watched this video and started tapping. And it works. That led to research about drumming and healing. I downloaded some Native American drumming music...

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Hoarding
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Hoarding

Apr 30, 2014 by

Not like the TV shows. But kind of. Little mementos of the lives lived: birthday cards with their signatures, a Starbucks sleeve with a note on it, a broken He Stopped Loving Her Today 45lp, a frog figurine on a shelf, obituaries cut out of the newspaper, those little cards from the funeral home, ashes in container, a shirt that still smells like my...

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Making My Way Back
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It’s been 20 months since my first visit with my endocrinologist. 19 months since I went (militantly) gluten free on her recommendation. 15 months since starting adrenal meds. 6 months since starting a T3 supplement (in addition to the T4 I’ve taken for years.) Between my last visit with Dr. LaSalle and now, I’ve also begun Removing More Toxins from my life. Last visit, my...

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Dental Phobia and Sexual Abuse
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I was stunned. Going into this healing after sexual abuse journey, I had no idea how much of my life was touched by this. Like a candlestick, the wax drips down and covers everything until what’s left is a big pile of wax and no flame to light the way. It’s one of those things I would’ve never connected. I don’t really even know...

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When Forgiveness Doesn’t Lead to Immediate Healing
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I have forgiven. My grandmother for watching it happen and not stopping it. My mother for knowing and not protecting. My father for the angry beatings. My great-grandfather who did it. The teachers who should’ve known. I truly thought I was healed. Turns out forgiveness isn’t a one time act. Neither is healing. I guess there are stages. And at this point, I don’t...

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Removing the Toxins
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So here it is. After researching my MTHFR gene mutation (which 40% of the population has) and finding out my body has a very difficult time ridding itself of toxins, I’m on a journey to help it as much as I possibly can. 18 months ago my body was in adrenal failure (which is fatal if left unchecked, and I think I was getting...

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Let Your Spirit Shine
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My husband asked, “Why now?” I don’t have an answer for him. Maybe because they’re all dead or closer to death than they’ve ever been–all the people I thought should’ve protected me back then. Maybe because I’ve lived long enough to understand grace and forgiveness? I don’t know why all of this gunk from my past is bubbling up now. Maybe because writing didn’t...

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Happy Dance!!!!
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It’s been almost 18 months since my first visit with my endocrinologist. 16 months since I went (militantly) gluten free on her recommendation. 12 months since starting adrenal meds. 3 months since starting a T3 supplement (in addition to the T4 I’ve taken for years.) Today, the adrenal failure diagnosis is officially gone!! My labs came back optimal for TSH, T3, and T4!! I’ll still...

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Reflecting {restore}
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My word for 2013 is {restore} This time last year, we didn’t know where we’d be moving. I had fasted through Advent. Phil was out of town for work almost all of that time. My dad had been diagnosed on Thanksgiving with an aggressive form of cancer and we didn’t think he’d make it to Christmas. From last December to now, I have spent...

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Fuckin’ Perfect
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Brave. I’ve been hearing that a lot lately in regards to both my professional life and my private, personal life. Yet I sit here and my eyes overfill and pain spills down my face. I listen to this and I tell myself I am not what they say I am. Pink “Fuckin Perfect”on Vimeo. I can ignore it for a long time. I can...

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Fasting {Weeks 11-12}
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I have learned SO much in the last couple of weeks about my mind/body/spirit healing. The assimilation of knowledge is at a breakthrough level for me. In a way it seems like I should have already known this stuff, but then I’m not sure I could have.  I think we’ve all been programmed to believe that the mind is separate from the body which...

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Mucho Excellent News!!
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My follow up appointment with my endocrinologist (who specializes in chronic inflammation) was today and the results of all my bloodwork and salivary hormone tests were (for the most part) excellent news!  Excellent because everything is fixable!! Which is a HUGE relief!!   So far (with Levoxyl) my thyroid levels are at a good range. I have a significant Vitamin D deficiency. I’ll be...

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2012 {year of grace}
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After praying intentionally about a word to guide my year, God gave me the word “grace.”  I knew it wouldn’t be easy because I am not the most grace-giving person. Not by a long shot. (the year before was “believe” and the previous three years the same word surfaced over and over: “simplify.”) I had been thinking to myself what a bad year 2012...

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First Endocrinologist Appointment
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I am so excited to report that today’s appointment was wonderful!  Dr. LaSalle is not only and endocrinologist, but  also Medical Director of Integrative Medicine, which means she treats the whole body using alternative and conventional medicine.  She studied under the direction of the man who established the field of integrative medicine. After today’s visit, I feel confident that we’ll get to the bottom...

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Neglected by Choice
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Most of you out there in blogland also follow me on Twitter or Facebook so you probably already know why this blog has sat dorment for a month. The rest of you, maybe sponsors I’ve just started building relationships with or new readers should understand this isn’t typical at all. Here’s the recap of the last month: April 14th: I headed to Calvin Festival...

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