one thousand (imperfect) gifts
naming these things, putting pen to paper, physically moving my body to be grateful is harder than it appears. Good moments, bad moments, indifferent moments, she’s right–they’re all His moments. Labeling one good and one bad, in my imperfect knowing…not wise.
Always a struggle to decipher the “Thank God” comments. Thank God (insert name) survived cancer. (and Thank God my mom died of it?) Thank God (insert name) wasn’t hurt in that automobile accident. (and Thank God my sister’s friend was killed in that automobile accident?)
Two decades ago, no thanks was being offered for my husband divorcing me. Now though? Yes. Multitudes of thanks for that first husband leaving so the husband of my soul would find me.
Maybe it’s just that I should expect that even in the troubling times, there will be some sort of benefit? But is that ok–to expect a good thing? Or is that prideful and selfish?
I have no answers. (I’m imperfect)
(and so are my attempts at gratitude)
(but i’m trying)
day twenty-two and twenty-three
day twenty-four and twenty-five
day twenty-six and twenty-seven
day twenty-eight
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Michelle,
I love this simple you powerful reminder to be thankful for all things.
I think that yes God is always working for good and we can trust that but it does feel weird to expect it and I feel like when I expect it I question which thing is the good from it. Instead I see after looking back often after significant time has past (sometimes years) and I see it and have no doubt that this is the Him making good.
Love your heart!
Jen
Love this post! I just finished the book today. Again I want to thank you for telling me about it. I can’t tell you how much I loved it! I was going to buy it for EVERYONE for Christmas, then I realized it’s not out until after Christmas! lol Guess I know what I’ll get everyone for their birthdays next year. 😉
P.S. I have a “review” of sorts of it on my blog today.