Bad days ahead

Tomorrow my brother and sister and I are going to spread and distribute my mom’s ashes.  I still don’t know that it has sunk in that my mom is in a box right now. All of her. And we have to divvy her up. ugh.

Tuesday would have been her birthday.

We’re leaving for vacation and happier days Thursday. I don’t know if I’m taking the computer yet. I just can’t make a decision.

I’ve got some posts drafted and scheduled. I’m probably going to be depressed, so it might be best for me to leave the computer behind and unplug. But I might need to write, so I might take it. I don’t know.

It’d be better if I didn’t have to deal with my mom’s death right now. I’ve been keeping myself way too busy so I could avoid it. Looks like I don’t get to avoid it any longer. Then comes Thanksgiving and Christmas and I honestly don’t know that I’ll be worth anything the next few months.

2 thoughts on “Bad days ahead”

  1. I’m glad you have this time to grieve with your brother. It will be unspeakably hard, but the grief reminds us that this is not the end, and perhaps in the grief, you will be able to see glimpses of life.
    It’s right to grieve and hurt. It is a loss, and it is painful. We cannot deny that.
    Death sucks.

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