I’d been thinking all week of how I could possibly take a photograph of my definition of confident. I wanted to post something about The Midnight Diner going to print–how I had all these plans for a big reveal of the book at the conference I’m attending this weekend, Context 23. But then I received word from the printer (multiply times over) that there was some problem with the file and I admitted defeat…I’m not going to have a book to take with me even though I paid for a dealer’s table months ago.
Then I got an email that my book proposal for Visual Prayer was rejected.
So. Y’know. Confidence is something that’s just not tangible right now.
Maybe that’s why my brain forced me to turn off all things logical (and painful) to spend hours and hours in my makeshift studio. I entered at 10am Saturday. I did stop to eat, but went right back to it. Left after midnight. So 14ish hours on Saturday.
Woke up Sunday to find I wasn’t finished. Entered around 9:30am. Left at 11pm last night. Almost 14 hours Sunday.
28 hours of creating.
And I’m not finished. I want to spend all day in there again, but I have (ick) responsibilities (ick) I even hate that word right now. I just want to be surrounded by my art.
It makes me feel confident.
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13 thoughts on “Popinjay–Confident”
Your new design is beautiful!!!
Oooh, pretty!!! Both the design & the painting. Love, love!
“Confident” huh?? I’m going to have to think about this…. =)
I didn’t know about the book proposal rejection. I’m so sorry. You do know how often some of the greatest writers of all time were rejected, right? 😉 I have no doubt it will find a home.
As for the art…I love it. You are so talented. Funny how those moments that seem like defeat spur such artistic vision. You have every reason to be confident.
I will have to think about this one. I am not confident. LOL! I’ll have to look through my photos and see if I can find something that fits.
The proposal rejection wasn’t anywhere near as heartbreaking as hearing I won’t have The Midnight Diner 3 in my hands for the conference. It was just one of those when-it-rains-it-pours days. (So I said eff it all and went to the beach with @itsToni. 🙂
I’m happy you did say, “eff it all!” Haha. And glad you had Toni to go the beach with!!
I just redid my site design too. I love yours 🙂 Is it just me, or does it feel “more grown up” to have a blog on your own site?
I love your popinjay too. I have a soft spot for Sunflowers. My first garden was a sunflower garden. They were about 9 feet tall at the end.
I’ve *always* wanted a sunflower garden. Every single time I’ve planted seeds the rabbits, deer and critters have ate up all the seedlings!!
I love your new site design, too!! And yes, it feels much more grown up to have a unique design on my own domain. Notice I’m avoiding that Responsibility word…again. 😉
I love how you withdraw. Regroup. It’s OK to lose confidence and withdraw for a bit. Solitude energizes, refreshes. Thanks for Popinjay, I’ve really been enjoying the challenge.
Loving the new digs and I love your art. Everything happens for a reason. You’ve got your art, no one can disapprove that. Confident, you should be. <3
P.S. Don’t forget to categorize this post as popinjay!
Oh, and here’s mine: http://sophistishe.com/2010/08/in-memory-of-me/