Jill‘s been gone one year today. The only reason the pickled watermelon rind she sent Phil last year isn’t in there any longer is because while we were out of town one weekend, our power went out for a few days and when we returned, we had to throw everything away. I held it in my hand, hesitating. I thought … Read More
She didn’t let me take too many pictures of her because she thought the flash was lightning. She’s been gone 5 days now and I’m trying not to talk about it because as much as she frustrated me rolling in dead stuff, well, I don’t want to believe she might be dead somewhere. This morning, Kimmie was taking Sarah to … Read More
I want to tell the whole story later, right now, I can’t. It was just her and I and I was singing Let There Be Peace to her. I sang, “Let me walk with my brother…” and she was gone. Visitation will be at Rees Funeral Home, Brady Chapel in Lake Station, IN Sunday. I expect the website will be … Read More
**Dibs on title** Total Avoidance would be a great name for a short story. I’ll have to write that as soon as I get on with this avoidance thing. I am so not good at this shit. I watched another movie over the weekend and I can’t get it out of my head. It sounded funny. It was funny. It … Read More
But it’s something. I haven’t looked at my novel since December. Right before I went to be with Jill before she died. I don’t know if her death shut me down. Death has a way of doing that to me. I don’t know what it was. But I got it out last night and I decided it was time to … Read More
Jill and I met in 1998 in Aurora, Missouri at Union Planters Bank where we were both hired. It was an instant bond since we both “weren’t from around there”. She was from Illinois, around Peoria and I was from Northwest Indiana. We both talked fast and wore weird shoes, far as those Missouri folks were concerned. Phil was gone … Read More
*A note before you read this. After doing an audit of my blog in 2022, I have decided to leave content that speaks to the Christian I was at the time this was written. I no longer identify as Christian (and haven’t for a very long time.) I chose to leave these posts because it is who I was then … Read More
If you’ve known me for any length of time you know we *ding* when we change subjects, right? I think there might even be a few of you who have learned how valuable the ding system is. I’m happy to introduce to you, the originator, my *ding* friend: Jill now blogging at Fluff ‘n Babble ‘n Brains. It took her … Read More
Here’s Part 1 Part 2 Chronologically speaking, I’m not doing well here and I’m going to have to back things up a bit. Most of the story I’ve told has been from 2005 until now, but there’s a pretty big event that I skipped right over, it was what put me in the hot seat. There’s so much backstory that … Read More
Here’s part 1 From yesterday: Except Jesus forgot one very important detail. He forgot to let Uncle Ed live. The downward spiral of Uncle Ed’s mental and physical health began without many noticing, I’m afraid. To pinpoint an exact date or time frame would resemble an attempt to duct tape water to the wall. My Uncle Ed is my mom’s … Read More